Chaos­ and ­Embrolio

Give me just a moment to gather all my thoughts

Let me put together all the things that I have got

So many things are going on so little time to think

All the major “slip my minds” pass by in just a blink

I need some time to catch my breath so I can clearly see

What are all the details that have passed in front of me?

Plans are left uncertain, too many books to open

Piles of paper on my desk, I wonder how I am coping

Things to do and people to call

I look to the left and my coffee cup falls

I wipe it up quick with yesterday’s sock

I look at the wall only 7 o’ clock

What have I done to go though this trail?

When all I can do is just sit back and smile

I will one day take time

To walk barefoot on grass

And dream of the day that I see you kiss my ass

Acceptance

I never knew of failure, I’ve always known success

Expected so much more from me and never any less

When my life was going good and everything was right

I had to stop to bow my head and then gave up the fight

So now I wait for a second to chance this time I will not quit

I won’t be called a failure I’d rather stand not sit

Doubt and confusion feeling very blue

Real or just illusion lost on what to do

Fear and mass dilemma everything is fast

Try so hard to be the first and always wind up last

Physical and mental, times are getting rough

All that I am giving is never quite enough

I guess it was a mental block or maybe just a case

Of negative emotion that made me lose the race

The people who I called my friends

They now think it’s funny

I cannot wait for their rainy day

To laugh cause mine is sunny

I know that when my pain is gone and no more is to woe

I’ll stand upon the highest point and shout

           ” I told you so!”